dun think anyone bothers to read my blog anymore. more or less died these past one and a half years. its not that my life has been uneventful. it has been more den eventful. so much so that i've been unable. and lazy to pen all my thoughts down. instead relying on other means by which i can express my thoughts to.
in army already. believe it or not. botak is temporary, handsome is forever. was our lame platoon motto for a bit. hahah. army is all about getting used to. getting used to the large amount of wastage of time which could be much better and more efficiently spent in the outside world. i dun say that my physical aspect hasnt improved. it would be a total lie. but yeah. the waste of time. and the stealing of my freedom is what i find most bitter. 6 days of freedom for cny. 16 days of confinement for field camp and sit test. madness.
life has not been all about army. these past one and a half year. a big chunk was prelims and my a's and an even bigger and more influential chunk was my attachment to my once significant other. an emotional rollercoaster that i should not have put her through in the first place. but it happened nevertheless. i don't regret it. but i do regret many of my actions during the relationship. its past. i can only move on and try to forget. but as it is said. forgetting is not completely not remembering it at all. but not letting it influence you. i guess. the only thing i can do is forget. some things i just will remember for the rest of my life.
a's just seemed to fly by without any hassle somehow. studying became so monotonous and dull and boring. but just kept doing it and paper after paper trying to get all that crap that i need for a levels into the grey matter sitting on top of my shoulders. glad its over. dunno how i'd do for it. at all. just hopoing that results will break my 16 day confinement. 16 days in camp. 10 of which outfield. MAN so not looking forward to it- but yeah. a levels. its tough i must admit. brain rattling to the max. but when it all ends. it doesnt seem like much. just relief that the end has come.
army is two years of my life. one year ten months to be precise. and im into my fourth week as a chao recruit already. getting used to life. but havent gone outfield yet. so i guess am still living a relatively comfortable life still yeah. my pc ( platoon commander) is supposedly a reowned sadist outfield. im SO not looking forward to pissing him off man. hahah. but guess outfield should be quite fun. provided there's no one whining about the mud and mozzies. - i KNOW they are irritating but no need to say so many times right- ahaha. okok just another of my talking to myself kinda things.
another major change that has been stirred up in me is the spiritual aspect. somehow it didnt really occur to me what it really meant to be a christian. i mean i went to church and all. but what did it really mean. dying to myself. my glory all the cross. living a life with Christ as ur shining light. guess i have to begin by thanking amanda for being my qt buddy to start things off. qt wasnt a really stringent thing for me before. did it as i pleased or as i felt like it. but now. even in camp. i have this desire to do SOME form of qt every night. and its not an obligation to someone anymroe. not a routine by which i follow. but just desire to want to talk to Him. and most of all. to find out more. the SO MUCH MORE that i have yet to discover. and almost everyday. -somedays i have NO time to do qt. highly irritating. either pc come in to check. or got to pack field pack and all that nonsense. stupid company with no admin time- yeah. its an adventure everytime. and i find so much meaning in one or two verses sometimes. taht a verse or two would be enough spiritual food for the day. =) such is the power.
the major reason for the increased interest would be precepts + bs with daniel and dev. they know so much it puts me as a Christian to utter shame man. but it just pushes me on. to read more and more. as much as i can. to learn and to grow in His word. i still have much to go. romans 5 is my new inspiration in camp man=) romans 5:3-5 . the effects of which i see in camp day after day. esp THAT day when crazy shaheen took over. complete madness. but complete truth. =)
dun think i have much time to blog nowadays. BMT is basically no time for anything but training. yup=) love being home. its a luxury man. only those who have served can truly understand. the pain of confinement. and being told to do things that i dun want to. thanks be to the Lord who has been with me always. as well as his dear children. amanda christl alethia among others who have provided me constant enocuragement and spiritual support through my BMT. i could never thank you guys enough=)
me. the new platooon 2 song ic. VIPER! hahah
hey yah oh yah infantry yah!
we are the men from viper company yah!
got no time to watch tv yah!
but got time to do pt yah!
romans 5 :3-5
and not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulations worketh patience; and patience, experience; and experience hope; and hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us
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